Core of Empty Feelings Unleashed

Life is eventful. It propels us to experience many occurrences which give us short glimpse of jittering scintillation. All these events of life utopia create some feelings. Interestingly, sometimes these feelings are barely discernible and so convoluted that they are very easy to experience but quite cumbersome to explain in a life time.There are two categories of feelings which can easily be pinpointed in two flag ends of a continuum: Happy Feelings and Sad Feelings. The modifiers of these two categories are blatant self-explanatory to comprehend their inner essence.

There is something beyond these two categories. And this category is known as Empty Feelings, which squeeze the heart silently but mercilessly over and over again. They are very much inconspicuous and acutely biting in nature. Myriad of words are apparently inadequate for human being to express how they feel at the time they experience Empty Feelings, or what type of devastating maelstrom sweeps over their tender hearts during that time. It’s an Inside Job which unleashes azure grievances and create melancholic complexion on visage. Very few people in our walk of life can fathom the true connotation of that physiognomy. That is why it is probably the most complex and dolorous part of the tale.

Now, what is the origin of Empty Feelings? We may take the life lightly and let it go in its own way without any destination or any specific future plan. Problem is, at the end of the day, we will get what we truly deserve. Life will take the due retaliation for any sort of misjudgment we do with it, and pay us back the exact reward we are qualified for. Every tiny effort of life will be paid off no matter how longer it takes. Similarly, every unscrupulous act of life will repay in kind no matter whether we are ready to accept it or not. All these cognitive and pedantic issues reason that every step of life should be precise and well chosen. However, to err is human—which is why Empty Feelings get the very opportunity to play their cryptic roles in our problem-prone life. Because of our very nature, even if very few of us try to learn from previous mistakes, somehow someway life pushes all of us to step forward. This knotty aspect of life creates a huge gap between our current state and future expectation. In life graph no gap remains blank, some terrible objects fill that up and create endless misery. The orchestrator of this interminable predicament is known as Empty Feelings.

Tough bite of reclusiveness (Photo Courtesy: BBC Online)

Life is too short to be miserable.We shouldn’t be ambushed by Unlimited Desire which is another fuzzy notion of Empty Feelings. Life should be focused towards some precisely defined goals, and we should relentlessly try to attain those goals by orbiting through our won trajectory not by following others. Counterproductive comparison and omnipresent rat race should be shunned at any cost to keep our innate human features not being tainted by somebody else. End of the day, our very own styles will prevail over others and give ourselves a distinctive self identity in the success-starved competitive world. Holding this belief will settle down all calculations. Needless to say, it's definitely a mammoth task to accomplish. We should stick with our own tracks by overcoming all impediments. Charismatic technology guru Steve Jobs said it well, KEEP LOOKING, DON’T SETTLE until or unless you see the halo of the object that you ardently cherish. And of course, don't forget to enjoy the success thriving journey to get rid of all stresses and miseries which often entangle our life.This is how we have to forbid Empty Feelings perpetually.


By
George Atlantic
Completed on 09 June, 2013 @01:22 AM

Somewhere Always

We meet so many people in the long walk of our life. Some people come, some people go. We welcome new arrivals and bid farewell to the old faces. This is the simple yet so complicated cycle we go through. However, very few people can create impact and leave a long lasting impression within us. Those who can are the people whom we remember forever. They are the people who have become the reason why we flip through the reminiscent book that we compile through our memory bank over the years. The cover of that book is blue which radiates inconspicuous sadness. Still, we do open the book and subconsciously seek momentary happiness disguised in bland sadness. This convoluted blow of mind continues until the memories laid down by those impactful people begin to fade away and extinguish forever. Irony is, the more we open the memory bank by going through the book in blue cover page, the more those people and their impact embed in our heart and mentally enfeeble us to become emotionally stronger. 

Some people happily like to carry the burden of blue memories even if knowing the unpleasant consequences they incur. Because those people know, sometimes life and events put them in a situation when memories, bleak or beautiful, become the only bridge to connect with those who have gone past or no longer in touch in the perennial timeline of long life. Memory is not just about memory— it becomes shadow of the people with whom we create distance intentionally or unintentionally, by choice or by chance, hatefully or forgetfully. Yet again, impact is the reason why some people dominate in our memory bank and others don’t. Similarly, impact is the very reason why we remember some people for long time although we have spent very few moments with them, and forget those even after sharing so many life events for several years.      

Tribute to Eternal Love & Selfless Generosity 

Time changes the stories of life. New stories eclipse the old ones. Characters in the stories also change. However, some characters have the innate power to last long. The people who play those characters keep recurring in our minds without generating any reciprocity in return. Mutuality of remembering someone"I will recall you and you will recall me in response" doesn’t occur by deliberate effort. It’s a spontaneous matter far beyond any willful control. Here, single-screen emotional reflection edges over duality and makes any sort of psychic telepathy totally impertinent. That is why in life ocean fraught with memories we indulge all alone, we swim all alone, we afloat all alone. Is it a sad part of life? No, intrinsically, this is what we call life. Our choice, decision and purpose define our respective life, so do our emotion, affection and love define whose memory we will carry, whose memory we will discard and obviously, whose induced pain and bestowed pleasure we will agreeably bear for endless period of time.    

Apart from happy feeling rendered by kaleidoscope of beautiful memories, sometimes some memories engender only pain and self-indicted agony. A sentimental breaking point full of emotional misery tears the heart apart and triggers a remorseful realization: why did I meet this person? I wish I had not met him/her. Not everyone comes as blessings in life. Some people come to tantalize the heart and desert it by leaving behind an elusive affection. Desiccated heart trapped by illusion somewhere in an alien territory always inanely wishes some miracle to happen. But miracle barely happens in life, does it? 

By
George Atlantic

A Late Night Tale

Silent city. After passing a busy day along with its dwellers the city is also snoozing. The roads are preparing themselves for tomorrow. The glaring light of lamp posts decorates the roads with a new look. Till now some vehicles are rushing to their respective destinations. It’s like non-stop festinate, like human life. Autumn breeze is dancing the trees. Sporadic gentle wind simultaneously creates a chilly atmosphere at times, conveying the advent of Late Autumn in few weeks time. The blue sky turns into grey. But its colossal facet remains same. Night birds sprout their wings; they are free. These are the unique beauties of late night. Among all these beauties the “Blue Mind” becomes so restless like Jeff Bridges’ Crazy Heart. It’s a different sort of agitation. The twitchy mind itself doesn’t know what it really wants. The dawn is going to commence. Insomniac mind is still awake. It forgets to sleep tonight. May be to know the unknown, to see the unseen the curious mind becomes so impatience. What are those untold wants? Apparently, it seems that in order to divulge any mystery the restless mind is eagerly aroused till late night. What are those mysterious fables? When are they supposed to be revealed? Who is responsible for giving rise these twisted perplexities? Tonight these unknown queries are frequently roaming around the Blue Mind. To seek out the answers to these questions, it spent a lot many nights wide-awake. A similar thing is happening tonight, nothing different. How many nights does it have to awake? Nobody knows. To discover these unknowns how long Blue Mind has to wait. This is also beyond anybody's imagination. Time, may be time will decide. The time, which will disclose all miracles one day 

By

George Atlantic

Blue Mind: The Incomplete Story

Translated from diary (06-06-06)

Originally written: Just before FIFA World Cup-2006

Change Is Possible

We all dream of a beautiful Bangladesh. But sadly, we often act foul as we seldomly exercise conscience in our regular walk of life. What an ambivalent farce! A culture of moral digression that leads to any form of corruption, deliberate discrimination against minority or weaker class of the society, and preferential treatment will soon turn our beautiful dream into a terrible nightmare. We are simply plaguing our unbound possibilities, and creating a juggernaut state where our honesty and integrity are being strangled in every way possible. We are nipping our bright future in the bud. Avoiding responsibility and nagging the system is quite easy. Let's not forget, we, the people, are also responsible for accepting the system and involving in corruption to a greater or smaller extent in pursuit to meet our urgent need every now and then. It’s an obvious selfish act that subconsciously hatches misdoings which in turn germinate as an unpleasant culture of corruption over time.

Bangladesh: The land of beauty

If widespread corruption is a system, then obviously a corruption-free society is also a system that will touch everyone’s life—from street scavenger to head of the state. For that reason, any loophole, bigger or smaller, is good enough to taint the entire system. Therefore, once society ubiquitously embraces the system, then there is no rubicon. It’s everyone’s moral responsibility to give any promising system a cultural look and realize the outstanding consequences it may bring forth in the long run. That means, we ourselves have to follow each and every aspect of that healthy system by setting examples and encourage or if needed force others to do the same. In that case, the importance of accountability of the policymakers, law enforcers and other authoritative bodies comes to the forefront. If people are the source of power, then it’s the people’s power which is sufficient enough to hold the accountability of those who work for the Republic. It requires some important initiatives—the deep-rooted culture of power distance must be eradicated; a mindset to work as people’s servant has to be well-nurtured and be remindful that failing to do so may cost the job; a massive social campaign needs to be undertaken to create large scale awareness; and of course, an all-inclusive action plan has to be set up to build a gargantuan pool of educated, self-educated and conscious citizens who will really care the state affairs and ready to take opening step whenever needed.  

Change is difficult but not impossible. No nation was impeccably civilized since its inception, and there is where the hope underlies for us. Cynical people will show their cynicism; it’s their natural instinct but change will never come if we retreat or wait for it to happen automatically. Change requires hell-bent initiative, the very drive that starts from micro-level, the family. Any tiny endeavour can bring forth mammoth change. Why not lay down the first founding stone of corruption-free Bangladesh from our own family, from our own community where we usually have a handy command to make any necessary change, and enjoy palpable outcomes immediately. Legacy and culture require time to create spree in the blood of a nation. Solid patience along with persistent effort and firm belief has to be there for the generation to follow. Beseeching remembrance and utmost veneration is only possible if we accomplish our responsibilities by setting examples. Let’s exploit the opportunity in a lifetime to be the exemplary pioneer of change and show the world and say—look, we can! Change is possible, we have to believe it. Belief has a miraculous spirit to accumulate inner energy that inflames our body and mind to do great things. Let’s build our castle of possibility where a better tomorrow will felicitously welcome us. God bless Bangladesh!  

By
Md Azzajur Rahman